11 April 2011
For the past 6 months, I learnt that Love can change everything about you. Loving someone isn't that easy. You need that amount of patience to conquer this kind of feeling. Love is about knowing all about that special someone, and still wanting to be with him more than any other person. Love is about trusting that person, enough to tell him everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. Love is the feeling of being comfortable and safe with someone, but still get weak on your knees when they walk towards you and smile at you.
I've been in a lot of relationship before this guy. The feeling isn't the same when I'm with him. I have this funny feeling when I'm out with him. I can never get enough of him. Like, I wanna bring him home and shower him with love, like how I do it to Ashley and Hamtaro. But too bad, I can't just bring him back home like that. Is this feeling called love? I really wanna know. Maybe for the past 11 relationship that I've had, I didn't feel the love, which is why we never last long.
I know its normal that couple fights, but every time I fight with him, I learn something new about him, except for the fact that he really scares me when he gets mad. It's a sight that you don't wanna see. Compared to my past relationships, everytime we fight, we tend to end our relationship just like that. But now, I think it'll be a waste if we end it just like that. I love him too much. I can't bear to lose him. He changed my life. Without him, I wouldn't have been who I am right now. I think I might still be the old Nadhirah, who love to do crazy stuff.
I know, there'll be people talking about how me and my guy always spending time together, like almost everyday. For those of you who knows me very well, I tend to think about what other people think about me, which is kinda sucks. He told me to ignore whatever they say, cause it won't affect our relationship. So, in other words, their jealous of our strong love :D
I love you, MOHAMAD DZULHILMY MASNI. I promise that I won't leave you. Didn't plan to, and never will. ^^ just try to control your anger okay hon. Love you ^^
Love,
Nadine
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